I speak for the pained

I wish for

I’m slowly but surely sinking
Into deep deep sorrow
No one can save me now
Yet I beg to be saved
I am red in the face
Preparing to explode
Yet no words come
The explosion stays inside
So no one sees
And no one hears
No one really cares
I just wish there is somebody
The opposite of others
To say he cares
And actually mean it
To hold me tight
To blow away my smoke
Hold my hand
When I’m holding it in
I wish and wish for hope
But shooting stars ignore the needy

Disadvantages of the Innocent

Should I have been relieved that I am not included in the mess? That I am innocent? 

Sure it has an obvious advantage. But the disadvantage? Them not letting you take part and say what you have to say. Sometimes you have to hear what the odd one out has in mind. The odd one out is me. It’s like their the celebrity and I’m society. And everyone knows how society could criticize. They don’t feel the pain of the suffer-ers, which is why they have soo much to say. Which could be very judgmental, but also fucking true and painful. 

Butandwell, what do i have to say..

Why must one do such a thing? Because youth? Possibly. Or peer pressure? For some. Hm, Maybe they’re right let the odd one be taped. I may never understand because I never tried. There might come a time when I will, possibly. But I know that I’ll never get myself addicted. Once is enough for me. I may seem like a pussy but well, ill graduate.

No hard feelings,


ACET 2013-2014 tester’s experience

Good bye Ateneo!

Regretting!!!! 😦 I hadn’t had the time to give my best on the essay! We had 15 minutes left before the proctor announced that by this time we should be at part 4 (essay). I had about 8 more questions left so I crammed. The time I finished I was wondering why the proctor was not announcing the essay question. I raised my hand only to find out that the question was placed on the essay sheet. How could I have been so stupid and careless? Five minutes left before the time, I rushed to writing. And.. it was the worst essay I had EVER written. HOW COULD I HAVE BEEN SOOO. And just like that I knew my chances were snatched away from me.

Math btw was okay, english part 3 was confusing. Abstract Reasoning was hell. 90% of my answers were mostly guesses. To conclude, I am frowning at the lost of my chance to be an Atenean. 

But oh well. This may be God’s will. But.. NOOOOOOOOO Ateneo i love you.